Finaly arrived home to Denizli. It was 2am. Nobody carred it was late, nobody was actually under the imperssion, that is 2am in the monring and it would be nice to go to sleep ; no no no no.....somehow we just didnt feel for it. All of us was happy and so exited as I have arrived to my new family :)
After having tea and some left over from the borek, we went to sleep. Could not wish for more just to be in my husband arms again. I did not believe that when I wake up in the morning, I sitll will be next to him, and it will be every single day from now on.
When I was back 2 weeks now in London after my holiday had a very strange feeling. I felt my phone will ring soon and I will hear again from my housband to be. It was end of June and was funny because that time in London was really hot. Hot and weekend just begunn. After hard work I went home and this feeling just did not want to go away. Other already made a joke and said, he wont call....but deep down i knew he will.
I gone to the shop and left my phone at home. Was not a big fun of mobile phones and I am not even now. When came back my phone was flushing.....and when I checked it, it was a forigner number with a message. I listend to the message and what a suprise!!!!! It was him! The MAN who I was wating for to call. I just sat there and listen to the message over and over again :).....until I have decided to call him.
Funny how to people can connect with each other. How two people can be a mirror for each other. It maybe was our destiny to meet , but it was even more believeable when we find out that our birthday are only one day different. We knew, we do belong each other......:)
The next day when I woke up, my husband suprised me with a beautiful bunch of flowers as it was my birthday....and it did not stopped here:) As he knew I dont wish anything else more then a good relaxing massage, he did book one for me. I was over the moon! I knew, he loves so much and he would do anything in the world for me....but I was not awere of the rest that followed the massage....
When the lady finished, she asked me to rest there for a while. Within 5 min my husband knocked on the door. He asked me if I am dressed up and when I said yes, the door widly opend and the ladies brought a beautiful chocolate cake with candles singing HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ....:) I had tears in my eyes, as no one before did something like this for me.....
Being with my new family in Turkey made me feel, like I never left mine. My new parents were the same just like my lovely parents back home. I was happier then every before. I knew, being there and give me the love, would be the same just like my husband would be with my family back home.
Did not care how we gona live. Did not care where we gona live. I knew, that with my husband by my side I can do anything. Anything we want.
When we lost our baby, I have realized that how much he loves me, how much he really cares about me. When I went to a labour, he did not move even for one mintue from me. He was sitting there holding my hand all nite and breathing through the pain with me.....the pain that we had double then other couples have....the pain that we felt so deep and so strong...in our heart, in our soul in our body.....the pain that no one can understand when you loosing your unborn child...
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